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LOLING!

2010-03-26T11:21:00.002+08:00

been a fking long time since i posted...i guess i will post few times a week/month from now...

currently, waiting for schl to start...april 12. Will it be heaven or hell for me?? hahas, still unsure.. lets just hope for the best. Even though none of my frens going same schl as me, i will still keep in contact with em...

Currently working at pan pacific hotel. next wed last day. Yay.. freedom..haha!. last few weeks, i heard a couple from room 908 making love lol..the girl was moaning like hell. " ahh, oh yea baby,, ahh!".. wtf?!.. it sounded kinda disgusting... cause it was too loud..lawl.

I wanna say gratz to my fren for getting attached finally..last long dudez! hahas.. i gtg fuck off now..gonna go meet him then maybe slack.. hope "her" mum not fetching her.. so can pei her..muahaha.. but see how la hor... till here then, ciaoz amigos!

Bored

2009-11-12T19:33:00.002+08:00

okay, so o level is finally over..but now im bored...nothing to do...=(..haish... gonna miss schl etc... well, just now went schl to fill in nyaa silver and give to mr calvin tan..hahas... bored..T.T

o lvl period.hahas

2009-11-01T18:53:00.002+08:00

having my o lvl now...2 major subject gone..5 more to go..lol... tmr my ss and chem paper..hope will do well... aiming for A1/A2/B3 for CH and science...hope can get it..dun want to dissapoint my family...have been studying alot lately.... i hope it is worth it lol...

so.. nothing interesting happen lately... but on friday, it was a very emotional day... due to some reasons..

o level ending on 11 nov..cant wait for e day..hahas.. 23 nov grad nite..looking forward to it but havent decide on what to wear...lol.. any suggestion??? but dun give me stupid suggestion lol..

errr, anything interesting, i will update..ciaoz...!!!

Hmm...

2009-10-10T07:07:00.002+08:00

hmm...13 days to o lvl...holy fk... i improve by 6 points for my prelim... compared to mid year.. need to cut down more points..must work harder harder!!!!

today going jalan raye with frens..=)..been waiting for it so long..... hahas..hope i will enjoy it alot even though confirm will get disturb alot....

bored...2 weeks already without my phone..i can get back my sim card..but got no extra phone..T.T... sad sad

to aqilah : im really sry for bothering u and disturbing u so much...im really sry.. i wont bother n disturb u anymore... but bout my frens, they meant it as a joke only... its okay if u dont wanna forgive me... i understand... i have done too much to u.. n i really change alot huh..hahas..

hari raya soon

2009-09-19T06:39:00.001+08:00

tmr is hari raya..wow, its so effing fast... but nvm..will be looking forward to goin house visitings with friends..=)... o lvl soon..omg.. e pressure is killing me... have to study hook or by crook.wouldnt wanna waste another year in sec schl...

im sry but its very hard to trust u anymore... im not e same naive guy in e past... my heart is worth something... i wont let any1 play with my heart anymore.. if u wan my heart, prove to me that u r worth it to own my heart...

hope tues plan wont be cancel..=)..eventhough abit nervous..hahas

Holiday coming...

2009-09-05T15:27:00.000+08:00

hmmm..51 days to o lvl..lol wth.// so fast huh?? must buck up!! dun wan to dissapoint e person i love, my parents and my family..=)..

hey gal...i know u r traumatized... its not ur fault.. dun worry... for now, i will wait for u to recover from ur fear..=)...and im not fed up cause we cant slack together or go out together..no..dun get me wrong...having u as my gal is already something that made me very very happy..=)... for now, jus relax ur mind k..u need time i think... dun think so much bout it k..i will wait till u recover...then we can have sweet memories like last time..love ya..=)..

omg..i love e song ur love is blind.. i just put it as my blog song;..muahaha.. remember to listen to it..=)

Meaningful lyrics..

2009-08-30T12:22:00.000+08:00

wow..this song lyric damn meaningful..=)

[Intro:]
[Sigh] Look. I know we've been friends for a while now.
But, I just feel like I can confess to you.
It's gonna be hard but.
Alright here it goes...

[Verse 1:]
Imagine that the pillow that you cried on was my chest,
and the tissue that you wiped your face with was my hand.
Girl, imagine: if you needed advise about some other guy, I'm the one that comes to mind.
Not tryna hear you tell nobody that I'm just a friend,
just trying to make sure I'm that body that you call your man,
and anytime you need a shoulder -- it's yours, night or day,
but what I'm tryna say is, I wanna be...

[Chorus:]
The last number you call late at night (said I wanna be),
The first one that you dial when you open your eyes.
Wanna be the one you run to,
wanna be the one that ain't gonna hurt you,
I wanna be yeah, I wanna be yeah..
Be the man making your girl jealous,
be the guy shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girl, it's all on me:
soldier, your friend or your lover, girl,
I wanna be...

[Verse 2:]
Would it be cool?
Would you mind if I called you my boo,
what if the next whip you was pushin' was the one I bought for you?
Can I be the one that meets your pops and take your mama shoppin', be the only one they like?
Have you thought about it -- wait -- really thought about it?
Maybe you should take some time
call your girls and talk about it, yeah.
'cause I done already made up my mind,
don't need no more time to know if I wanna be with you,
I wanna be...

[Verse 3:]
Put me on your screen saver, all over your myspace and make me one of your top favorites,
that's where I wanna be...
The one you cryin' for (stand up for and fightin' for)
wanna be your good, bad, love, hate girl..

Unexpected

2009-08-30T06:19:00.000+08:00

well...hmm..beenbusy with tarawih these few days... schl also not bad..but i love thurs nite and fri e most..cause something happened..hehe... friday after schl, slack with e some1 until 5.30..then went to send her to e bus stop and wait for bus to come... at nite play soccer..won 9-6...=D.. love my team...hahas.. hmm...today later goin religious class..boring...

her sim card spoil..=(..cant chat.. but luckily she called me yesterday nite to chat... thx alot..=)..

hmmm.... i shall update if there is anything new that happen

Quiz,[Aqilah]

2009-08-10T08:21:00.000+08:00

1. Are you single or attached ? Single

2.Do you have a person you like ? Hmm...nope i guess...

3. What is the name of the person that you're in love with ? Ms Sweetie =X

4.If the person you love and your mum dropped into the sea , who will you save ? Save my mum first then drown together with e 1 i love.

5.Have you ever hugged someone before? Yes .

6.Do you love your parents? depends on the situation... =P

7.Will you hug the one you love? Bonus question is it??? stupid shit..=.=.. duh?!

8.Are you willing to do anything for your boyfriend/girlfriend? Most probably..=)..

9.Are you jealous now? Just wake up, so no emotion currently...

10.Who is the last person that messaged you? Arif![4e]

11.Who is your clique?Im not working... Fucktard!

12.Do you want babies in future?well, not sure, but i certainly wanna TRY to have babies..i think eu know what i mean..=)

13.Do you prefer Macdonald,KFC,Long John Sliver,Burger King or coffee shop?
Long John silver

14.Do you sniff glue ? No

15.Do you smoke ? Yea??? =X

16.If your boyfriend/girlfriend is a 2-timer , what will you do ? Fuck her upside down!! ceyy, jus kidding... talk things out i guess..

17. Which CCA are you in now ? I pass out from Ncc already...

18.If you're rich, what'll you do ?buy my needs, and do some charity.=)

19.If the one you're in love with, held your hand, what'll you do ? Grab back her hand and smile..=)..

20. If the one you love, reject you, what'll you do ? Well, depends whether is it cause its not e right time or something...

21.What is your favourite cartoon character/s ? Hmm..not sure..but if anime, i like inuyasha!!, naruto, ichigo, aizen etc.. too many..=P

22.Friendship or Love ? Both

23.Cookie monster or Elmo ? Erm, Cookie Elmo???

24.Are you using a laptop or computer ? Computer

25.Do you like lollipop ? Depend on flavour.

26.Do you have a diary ?nope

27.There's an admirer of yours and he won't die heart , what'll you do ?
What Shit Are Eu Talking?!

28.If you quarrel with your boyfriend/girlfriend and he/she wants to break , what'll you do?
Talk things out first...if really no other way for us to hold on anymore, then maybe, we will just have to let go off each other...

29. Are you blur ? yea..sometimes... =P

30.If you can have your hair dyed, what colour do you want it to be? Nvr thought of it before...

31. Who is the last person you chatted in your MSN? Arif![4e]

32.How many boys/girls have you beaten before? Does sparring counts?? too lazy to count...

33.If your boyfriend/girlfriend don't love you anymore , what'll you do ?
fuck her till the love come back... hahas FAKE!!! well, i will have to end our relationship...if the love cannot come back anymore for her.

34. What school are you in? Budget View Sec.. opps, Bukit View Sec i mean..=P (=

Changing??hahas..

2009-08-09T13:42:00.000+08:00

hmm... now been paying in class to most of the lesson..=)..i dun wanna flung in my o lvl... it sucks alot... dun wanna waste another 1 year anyway... soo, schl not much diff..pay attention, do prep exam, after schl help out with dnt, etc..

To : ms sweetie =)

well, idk if eu will be reading this, but i want eu to know that im really sincere..i really mean what i say... and seriously, eu wont hurt me..i really trust eu..and even if we are over, i will still be ur normal frens, eu wont lose me in anyway... eu get what im trying to say?? but as we said, e time is not right i guess..so i hope, e day when the right time comes, eu will be ready...i will wait for eu till then and will look forward to that day.. i believe that we are meant together..thats y god let us meet each other... it was our fate..but we just need to wait for e rite time and wait till u r ready...=).. and dun worry bout me waiting for eu..im more than willing to wait for eu..=)...

for now, i will wait and we remain as frens...=)...

Tiring Friday

2009-07-31T21:57:00.000+08:00

hmm..today dunno was fun or not... morning, pay mr nonis for grad nite money..fking ex sia..=.=... then poa, eng then mt and fnn... mt, slept 1 period and do my test 1 period..dun know y keep sleeping in class nowadays..zzz.. fnn, did my experiment..played with swn camera..was kinda fun..hahas..after schl, soccer...win nazem team, but lose to e sec 3...2-1..zz.. long time nvr play soccer already... so, when back to schl, help out arif with dnt, around 5 went canteen, slack with arif, nazem, yogey, ibra and praval.. lol, very rare rite hearing me slack with them...well, yea.... tmr got e fking remedial... chem at 8..fker...confirm i go late..if teacher kpkb with me, see what i do.=)..fking tired and pissed off.. then went with arif...until 9 then went home..here i am now... dun know tmr goin where..see my mood...

oh ya, i change my url to http://fuck-1ov3.blogspot.com/ already.... cause e KlowN is extinct..exist no more.. and now, im more to Fk Love!.. so, gonna see how e weekend will turn out for me..cyaz..=)

ZzZzZz

2009-07-26T11:53:00.000+08:00

hmm, hope eu like the present give eu...it was nothing nice anyway..sowwie...

anyway, bout the sarcastic thing, he is jus not used to it... and it wasnt ur fault..he became like that cause suddenly e gal he use to like came into his mind...hope eu understand and wont stop hanging out with us...

haish, tmr monday,... i still got mc..but dun know whether should go or not... idk if go got anything nice or not...alot of shit is going through my head now...haish...

Can I borrow you for a minute?
Maybe two or five, maybe for the rest of my life
Borrow you for a minute
Just us two its alright
If you decide to be by my side
I might not give you back
Might not give you back
Might not give you back
If your here by my side
Might not give you back
Might not give you back
If your here by my side girl

dunno what title..=.=

2009-07-22T19:46:00.001+08:00

hmm..so i get mc till next monday..lol..tmr get result whether im h1n1 positive or negative..ill post my result when i get it... oh ya, wanna dedicate this song to some1 special..=)...

Kau gadisku yang cantik
Coba lihat aku disini
Di sini ada aku yang cinta padamu

Kau gadisku yang manis
Coba lihat aku disini
Di sini ada aku yang sayang padamu

Walau ku tahu bahwa dirimu
Sudah ada yang punya
Namun aku tunggu sampai kau mau

jangan kau menolak cintaku
jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan selalu setia menunggu
Untuk jadi pacarmu

jangan kau tak terima cintaku
jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu
Putuskanlah saja pacarmu
Lalu bilang I LOVE U padaku

nothing much to post...cyaz..bb

Hmm, a rare sunday

2009-07-19T20:22:00.002+08:00

so... in e morning, went to religious class..when i enter class, it was recess lol..hahas... then after that, was playing dragonica... then nazem and arif call me..so went down and slack n lepak2 with them..then around 12+, we went to accompany arif 4n to cut his hair..then after that, arif 4n and nazem went home..so left me and arif 4e...we went to slack at wm..then we went to block 620...sit around, talk and listen to song....and aqilah came too and join us..hahas..slack till 6+, then went home..now here i am..hope tmr will get fever..hahas..=)..hmm, nothing much, will update when i have latest news..and oh ya, harry porter new movie sucks..quite.. first few part was quite nice..ending like shit..=.=... so, till next time..ciaoz...

Labels: How i wish i could jus rewind eveything to e past....

LaTeSt

2009-07-10T15:28:00.003+08:00

well, now i have to sit at e front of e class...sianz...e good part is i can concentrate better..but suckier part is no fan.damn hot at my place...today paid attention during english and physics...i wrote down all the notes..hahas... only math nvr pay attention.. cause was damn pissed cause of something, so i jus sleep for 2 periods..then rain outside...wah, suang...sleep even more peacefully...

lately, been goin home late..busy with lots of stuff...havent been smsing any1 lately... no mood...=|..

tmr still got poa..sianz..=.=.. then maybe after tat goin home straight..not goin jp maybe....zzzz.. maybe will have to buy e present abit later..cause sat not goin jp to buy...

zzzz...dunno what to say already..cyaz,,bbz...

Labels: if eu wan me to be good to u, then be good to me first..if eu wanna give me attitude, ill return e favor to u..

Uber Long Nvr Post..514Nz!

2009-07-04T17:10:00.003+08:00

5o... b33n qu1t3 awhi1e s1nce i p05t...

sry with the number thingy..bored..hahas.. so, lately, go to schl everyday, then go home...in class, need sit infront of e sebastian..omg.. he damn "normal" sia.. talk to himself during class..wtf?! hmm, me n frenz under 2 weeks prohibition.. if attitude worse or same, tio 2 strokes of canning.. in improve, wont get... this is what we get for breaking into e ish..hahas... hmm, mrs tiong sure say my attitude damn fucked up in class..so, most probably will tio canning i guess...=) <--wtf?! lawl!

hmm, so today, went to schl around 8... then jimmy and johnson came around 9.30... johnson talk to father like pai kia..power!... around 11/12, went home to change..schl pants tear..T.T.. after that, planned to go library, but didnt.. went to jimmy house and before that, played basketball.. the horse/donkey game... then went home around 3 and played prototype...till 5 and now im using e comp... sianz de lor!!

oh ya, wanted to go watch movie with h3r and h3r mei..but sh3 got hw...so nvm.. dun wan to disturb h3r..so wont be smsing her for today... and btw, sh3 is jus a normal fren..dun think so far..reason wanted to go watch movie with h3r cause sh3 havent watch transformers and dieing to watch....

so, tmr nothing to do.. morning go class, then afternoon and evening comp and xbox 360 i guess..monday maybe goin out with family/frens...see how bah my mood..lately damn lazy to do anything and everything..that includes lazy to care bout gals etc..=0..

hmm..till here first..anything later i updatez... ciaoz..
Oh ya, Im obsessed with e song [Keri Hilson-Knock You Down] and [Unbeautiful - Lesly Roy]!!! love em..=)..hahas..siao me!!.. but i love it..=)

KlowN

label: Eu dun have to find Love, Love will find eu. Eu might not get love when eu want it, but it will come to eu when eu least expect it..=)..

BoReD!

2009-06-17T08:24:00.001+08:00

zzz, holiday life damn bored..not sure what to do..been caught yesterday for treepassing into the ish..today need to meet principal at 3... i goin schl early... later will update what happen..ciaoz

How Much Longer Will I Last?? )=

2009-06-08T19:46:00.002+08:00

hey there...so, jus came back from singapore poly...love e performance alot..omg! i wanna see it again..T.T... then after that, went eat at kfc and here i am rite now...

well, to those people i always disturb, i wanna apologise while i still got e chance...=).. im really sry...i know i sometimes over do it..i do it for e sake of fun, but i know it hurts eu inside..im sry guys/gals..im really sry...i hope ur hearts will be open to forgive me..=|....

TO my GrANDson in law, see, knew eu could do it..after going so much difficulties, eu finally have ur first relationship...im really happy for eu and my granddaughter.. last long kays?? dun wan eu to end up like me...always endure hor..dun give up so easily..cause u will regret later on... well, for me, idk...maybe for now, i jus dun wan to care bout this matter anymore..jus follow e flow of life most probably.. im kinda sad rite now..=(..haish.. i also dun know y...sometimes, i prefer e sad feeling....i know its kinda weird/stupid... but its unexplainable..eu know what i mean??

for now, idk whats my plan..go to schl, go home. then dun know what to do... i sometime jus wish i can go out n no need to go home, or even better, sleep n nvr wake up.... omg, i sound like a fking emo..lols...sat, i most probably not going out with my granddaughter and grandson in law..dun wan be e 3rd person..maybe go out with jimmy for awhile then go out alone...emo kia..>.<..till here then.. cyaz..

once again, good luck jhx6/6/9....

Ciaoz, KlowN[HiStOrY]

HoLiDaY LiFe!!! FAKE!

2009-05-31T16:48:00.002+08:00

hmm...today got parent meeting shit..but my mom cant go..so tuesday then she go...friday went home at 10.30, bath, change and went to meet jimmy , johnson and zhi yew... zhi yew sibei pro, try buy at buzz... then e uncle as for IC, he go giive...stupid shit..lols!..then went to buy at opposite schl..saw lots of frien there..then go back mrt, meet with joseph and off we go to causeway point... went to nokia phone, then joseph went off..left us e usuall member, 4 of us... went to opposite causeway and sit...slack there..saw some small boys playing sword fight using twigs...lol..wtf?! kinda cute..hahas..zhy yew laugh his ass off sia.. then went home shortly after that... sat, slack at home... around 2 went timezone to pwn guitar hero... then went home at 4.. sunday, here i am..at home.. tmr got o lvl mt paper.. wtf la.so fast..aiming for A... then tmr maybe after o lvl, going meet my granddaughter..hahas..c how bah..till here oni.nothing much to write... bbz..ciaoz

F LIFE!

2009-05-19T20:03:00.002+08:00

well, sat i went out.... go JP and slack around... then johnson siao..everything he hit also fall... magic touch..=D... then after tat, sian liao, all go home lor....went to eat at long john silver..then at jp got FHM event lol..got all the 10 finalist..all the old men watching and taking photo..hahas..horny bastard... then went home

Sun nothing much happen...jus whole day chiong coursework..like wan die lol... do liao, bo save, have to redo..sian! then i whole day nvr chat with her,,cause doin coursework ma..but i guess there wasnt a diff to her.....

Mon, went school and pass up coursework... sit around in school, no1..so lonely, go home... oh ya, our school got new afro dog..SWEET!... then went out again.. meet jimmy, zy and johnson... then walk around wm...finish what we have left... left 3 nia..T.T..lolz.. then walk around again...wanted to go jimmy de house, he bo key..went back wm... then walk around, meet ET...he offer me some..lols, anything lor.. then jimmy, johnson and zy walk around wm first, i go with et.. then we sitting at 29th floor, 3 girls came in..1 mly, 2 chinese... et wan thier number, but they gone le..lols!... then went meet my usual memberz lor...then walk around again.. then et wan go again..-.-..follow him again and jimmy, zy and johnson went jimmy house first.. after that, i also go jimmy house..fun lor..play poker.. win 3 rounds straight..=D.. then zy laugh damn funny..i laugh till got headache and stomach ache..then went home, meet jerwin...

tues, today sian de lor..go schl, get test mark..fk la...2 exam i fail by few marks... zzzz.. went wm.. saw this fat girl..the hair sibei nice!..lolz.. oh ya, i got a pic of ka sheng e sis..same face..sibei eww!
then after tat, went home..oh ya, saw her even though i nvr wear specs...

I alread tried and did whatever i can...
but it seems this is going nowhere...
i guess its because u r not doing ur part...
no use if i do my part, and u dont...
Cause love CANT bloom by itself

Im Not Over U

2009-05-14T18:32:00.002+08:00

today ok lor..chem , mt lc n FnN paper..after that, went to meet mdm ratna, mrs foong and my mum..tio scolded..then go wm with jerwin..buying present..hahas..then went home..here i am now..enjoying songs.. 1 of e song damn nice..kinda have relation to my current state...

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what i tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, i know it is
But i see you
Sometimes i try to hide
What i feel inside

And i turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

BuSy WeEkEnD

2009-05-12T12:56:00.002+08:00

Sat went out with jimmy, zhi yew,wei jie,joseph n johnson to carpet hair de bdae party... wei jie pms sia....see us then scold vulgarities..siao de.. was kinda fun... it was very cheerful lor..cake sibei nice..around 10 went home..damn tired...

sun wake up, got eye bag..wtf?! around 2, went out again with bro and ashwin..went timezone to pwn the guitar hero..hahas..damn nice.. e song talk dirty to me ( top 3 my high score) then got 2 other songs... top score mine too..hahas!..then saw her.. wearing blue shirt..she tried to trick me by saying she wearing purple lol...hahas..too bad i saw her..=P.. then after tat, my bro and ashwin went home first..i went to meet her..(<--- best part of e day..hahas)..send her some song..then joke around with her and walk her to e mrt since she wanna go home... then i went home too...

mon wake up around 9, quickly change and went to timezone to meet zhi yew... by e time i reach, jimmy n zhi yew was there..so, went to play 1 game of guitar hero..hahas...got 2nd top high score..lols... then wait for johnson till 12 and went lot 1..so sian...i love sun better..=p...then went home...

ZzZzZ

2009-05-08T16:59:00.003+08:00

today physics and math paper...i sleep 2 times and 1 of e teacher wake me up..T.T..so sad lor..people sleeping so nice, they disturb... then after that, went wm with jerwin n ashwin..they quarrel cause of scolding vulgarities..lol.. then went e block near my house n chat n joke around...then went home n here i am...looking forward to tmr..=D..

till here only..hahas.. ciaoz..cyaz..

KlowN

What if i said you never mattered
that i never lost a moment of sleep
what if i crushed all of your dreams
and broke all the promises you swore to keep?
Tell me how your life would be
if i do it to you like what you did to me.

StuPiD DaY!

2009-05-07T17:24:00.003+08:00

Sweet Tribal Wings.. how i wish i could have it on my back..hahas...maybe someday..=)

schl was ok..today was history and poa paper..poa sure gone...suddenly forget all the format...

after schl, on phone...got sms from my mei n her...they quarrel... wtf la... idk how to settle..let time help them...all i can do, give advice n advice...

After schl play soccer...then accidently kick the ball and hit zhi yew eye... psps, sry hor..ur eye become red sia..feel sibei bad.. then when home and use comp till now..bloody sian..

looking forward to sat....cause goin out with frens... maybe go timezone and pwn the guitar hero easy mode again..i got top hi-score the other day..woot!

till here..nth much to write....

KlowN

Eu ArE StaRtinG To PiSS Me OFF EveN MoReE!!

Ah tiong SuCkS!

2009-05-06T17:13:00.002+08:00

today class ok lor..quite fun..de siao damn lots of people..especially wei jie la... attitude problem... ma de, scold me for nothing.. then during the ng bee yong e class, we play throw2 card..i sibei pro..hahas... then i throw at zhi yew, tio his head.. then jiu kenna scold by bee yong,,make me clean whole class..nabei..clean liao, ask me wipe board..fk her la..wipe her fungi P**** then she know..

then after schl, go wm..walk around..kinda made a deal with jimmy..=), u sure can do it..hmm.. then now here i am lor..bloody sianz..till here then..ciaoz..

KlowN

Eu PiSS mE 0FF

But y??

2009-05-05T17:23:00.003+08:00

last friday went to watch xmen origin : wolverine..damn sweet!! zhi yew= sabertooth.
jimmy= wolverine..johnson = cyclops and me = deadpool..hahas! then after that..walk around wm.. slack around... then saw mel outside timezone...

today ok lor...but got science prac exam..didnt finish on time and i use wrong test tube..the the solution like explode tio my hand..ouchie. i guess its true, during my lesson, i on the super high pitch sound..all the teachers cannot hear..hahas!! pwnage....

SRY! MISUNDERSTANDING!..so complicated de sia...>.<...

Till here then..ciaoz
KlowN

~[Eu PiSs Me 0FF..]~

To See u is happy, is all i wanted.

2009-05-03T13:19:00.002+08:00

All i wanted was to see u happy, even if im not the reason.

And now i realise that i cant make u happy..i will nvr be able to. and my only reason to get back with u was to see the both of us happy. but its impossible now..no use getting back together if u wont be happy..

and i can feel ur love have fade..i dont blame u. time tend to erase feelings. from now on, i wont bother u anymore. im sry for the past. sry if i have ever hurt ur feelings. n i know i have. i got nothing more to say. i hope u will be happy without me..n i know u will..=).. till here then..cyaz.. cya around. btw, if u think u know who i am, u r wrong. theres alot of thing about me that u dont know.

KlowN

i dun know what is left to be said.

2009-04-30T21:12:00.002+08:00

i guess theres nothing left to say... looks like u r attached now.
i hope u will be happy with him..i wont hope that u will last long with him, but i will hope for the best for the both of u..if the best for both of u is to last long, then hope it will happen.

i really dun know what to say anymore..at times, i feel like breaking down..but i jus cant stop smiling..i dun understand...

Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before.

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will.

My heart longs for you, my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you, my empty arms reach out for you.

I had a dream and it was about you ...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had ...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ...

I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody
but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me...

You said you didn't want to see me get hurt,
so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?

I wish I was a kid again,
because skinned knees are easier
to fix then broken hearts.

I hope for the best for u... ;( :

)= ~Fade Aways??~ =(

2009-04-25T07:35:00.002+08:00

I can feel as if ur love is fading away...i can really feel it... Are my fears gonna come true??? i hope not....

I guess we r jus not as close as we use to be...thats y ur love is fading... i wanna get back together so our love will be like how it use to, but u arent ready... for now, all i can hope is jus tat u will still love me... i dont wanna lose e girl that always make me smile n happy....

If i was given a wish,without hesitation, i will wish for u...i will wish for us to be together forever... cause without u in my life, happiness wont exist anymore.. And i dun wanna live without u...without happiness...

For Now, All im hoping for is for ur love to be like how it use to..cause i really miss the times when we love each other so much...

Am I Born To Wait??? i hate waiting to be honest...but for her, i dun mind..=)

<3 23

im really sry

2009-04-24T14:39:00.003+08:00

im really sry..i didnt mean to hurt u...i know i jus think bout myself sometime n i regret it..im really sry...i promise u i wont do it...

i know mye coming..so i wont frustrate u anymore..i know feelings some fade away after time...n the only way for me to hold ur feelings for mine is by getting back together..but u r not ready...so idk what to do....

today was malay paper..no comment..tmr got FnN..SUCK LA!!!

u called me dear, i smiled
u called me syg, i felt so happy
u called me everything except called me urs....

i know u r not ready..nvm..ill be waiting..

"The Saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you." Well, it's not really the saddest thing, but one of the saddest thing.

Pls Dun Misunderstand me

2009-04-21T19:59:00.002+08:00

i know this year is my important year..i wanna concentrate too..but its i jus cant..cause theres something bothering my mint n its the fear of losing u..when we r not tegether, im really scared of losing u n this make me unable to concentrate..thats y i wanna get back together with u so tat this fear will go away n i can concentrate...n if u r still scared about hurting me, pls u dun have to...

anyways..dun get me wrong..i jus seem to have mood swings nowadays..anyway, looking forward to 23/4...hope it will come true..

till here,
MrWhatever[??]

Stepping down..=(

2009-04-19T12:00:00.002+08:00

haish..stepping down..=(..but i will still stayback for her..=)...

im kinda sry if at times, i sounded cold towards u..i didnt mean it.. i nvr had the intention to hurt ur feelings..im a human too and i make mistakes..so,i hope u will bear with me.. thx for accompanying me on friday..i really appreciate it n felt so happy..=)..even though it was jus for awhile, it didnt fail to make me smile..thx alot dear..=)

anywayz till here then... schl sian de..parade over... camera lan, they say damn blur...zzzzz..

Ciaoz,
Mr WhateveR
[23♥44]

F***ing sick...

2009-04-07T15:19:00.001+08:00

haiish...super sick..super pain...super miss her also..=p...

got 1 week mc from doctor..well, kinda good cause can play comp whole day..but not good cause cant see her and friends... idk what to write..now jus hoping to heal asap..want to go schl n see her...

anways..till here then..nothing interesting happened yet..

Ciaoz

P.S..i Miss You Ms Anything

haish...i hate thurs

2009-04-02T20:07:00.003+08:00

haish...she said no hope..but is there really no hope???i dun know..i will still wait... napha was very tiring... i got A for all 4 stations except for standing broad jump...got a B..=.=... nvm, 24 points already anyway.. get a C and ill get gold..

tmr im dead..i guess my form teacher is bloody pissed off with me...I DUN GIVE A FK! if its about sebastian, fcuk him la...

i will wait for u..

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

tiring

2009-03-29T18:00:00.001+08:00

had my camp on friday...haish..life really sucks without her...really need her back...i wanna go schl with her tmr..nothing much to write...when i got the mood, ill post

I will wait for u....

hmmmm

2009-03-26T18:40:00.002+08:00

today was damn tiring...o lvl practical for FnN..i thought i was dead, but mdm ratna helped me.. OMG! im so grateful to her..

morning was fun..recess sucks..i hurt her...=(

i really didnt mean to hurt ur heart..im really sry..i promise i will nvr do it again..haiish...

I MISS YOU!

this is not the end..!

2009-03-16T17:46:00.002+08:00

this is not the end..its not ur fault..u didnt have a choice...nvm, i will find a way for us to get back together..dun worry..

i still love u.im sry if i have been hurting u all along..i didnt mean it... u r the best gf i ever had n will ever have..seriously... u r the girl i have been looking for all along..i have nvr felt any happier with any other girl....i want to be with u always....

H4PPY

2009-03-14T16:16:00.003+08:00

im really glad we r back together..=)..nvr felt much happier..thx alot..hehe..=D..

well, nvr thought u would accept me back..but guess u did..hahas.. i just cant stop loving you... even how much i try to forget you, i just cant..you have a create a mark in my life..u gave me so much wonderful memories that i can nvr ever forget..i wanna take the memories with me forever..even after im gone... if possible, i wanna take you along with me too..i want to be in a place where there are no problems and there are only the 2 of us..we can be there for each other all the time..=)..

n im really sry i didnt notice you sms me yesterday nite...guess i was super tired from the parade training.i promise you i will accompany u next time k..=)

to conclude everything, I love you syg.. n i miss you baby.. A<3 A=)

hmm.went to schl to pass up hw..then meet jimmy, zhi yew n johnson..they went to play basketball... me n zhi yew sit 1 corner n sing while zhi yew play his guitar..it was damn nice..hahas.. such a tiring day...hmm..till here then..ciaoz....

PLS!

2009-03-12T18:14:00.001+08:00

pls dun change schl..i beg u..pls dont..

do u know that u r the reason i wanna go to schl?? if u change schl, i wouldnt even wanna go to schl anymore..cause i dont see a point of going to schl without u...

n seriously, u didnt play with my feeling..trust me.. u really didnt play... even though we patch n break alot of time, it doesnt mean u played with my feeling rite..

:'(

2009-03-11T19:51:00.002+08:00

haiish..cant u see how much i really love u?? cant u see how much i really wanna be with u?? 1 sec, u look really cheerful, n the next sec, u wanna break up..i dun understand.. y cant u tell me the real reason?? if u dont tell me, how r we gonna solve it??

u really wanted to break, n theres nothing i can do..i cant force u to stay with me.. all i can do now is just to wait for u..

n guys n gals, im not tired..i nvr will be... u guys dun understand me...u guys dun know how much i really love her

2009-03-10T17:07:00.003+08:00

life...people often say life sucks..well, i think i have to agree..how i wish i could just sleep n nvr wake up again..but i cant..cause i still wanna be with her..i still want to spend my time with her...she let me have the spirit to live on....without her, i dont think ill be alive at this moment..people might see me cheerful rite?? notice me at home.. then u will know... i wish i could just cut my heart out n pour out all my suffering..i might not slash, but my heart feels like as if it is being slash...

how i wish i could be by her side every second..then my suffering will all fade away...cause when im with her, all my problems n suffering fades away..it feels like heaven...

i really got no mood to write..im sry..i know i sound like an emo..haiish
hope the next time i post, it will be a cheerful 1...

I Love You Baby..<3

Haiish..

2009-03-03T18:10:00.002+08:00

schl..not bad..tho it kinda suck...pe canceled...english, cant use comp cause internet got problem... mt, ok la..but also sian... poa quite good..cause teacher allow us use phone(i think)..then me, jimmy n zhi yew sit at back of e class n listen to music...during the whole day, i was damn worried...i felt something wasnt rite..the way she reply me...all the answer so short, no smily at all..n guess wat, most of my sms, she doesnt reply..i have to sms twice then she reply..

well, its not her fault...im jus worried the same old past will happen... she turned cold towards me, then break up..i dun wan that to happen..well, i guess most of my friends know how much i really love her...guess what, i love her more than my family...i dun wanna lose her..

Syg,
if theres anything wrong, tell me pls..jgn keep secrets from me pls..i know sometime u keep secret so that i wont be angry or etc..but i prefer if u were to tell me the truth...i tak nak u upset or anything... i tak tau kenape, tapy i ade feeling as if ur feelings for me da tukar...as if theres an obstacle...the way u reply me..it makes me worry u know..u use to say that u shall always have the time for u, ill nvr disturb u... but lately, u dun say those stuff anymore... haiish..i dun know, i hope we will get back to the old times like we use to....i really love u n dun wanna lose u... i hope to see more happy times coming for u...

<3 u 4eva....

hmmmm...

2009-03-02T20:08:00.002+08:00

well...today was kinda suck..had to go for speech day training etc..walau..no mood sia...even though i get to be in the Guards Of Honours contigent..but i really got no mood... was feeling damn sianz.. luckily i have her to cheer me up..thx so much syg..=)..i really love u.=)..

now, here i am..sitting infront of the comp..sianz..looking forward to calling her n going to school with her tmr morning..

sian lor..wed,thurs n fri got adam khoo workshop..from 8 am to 9 pm lehz..can only go to schl with her on thurs...T.T.. till here then...ciaoz..

P.S..my new number = 96346626.and if u sms me, pls tell me hu u r..

OMG!

2009-02-26T20:13:00.001+08:00

25 feb!! BEST DAY EVER!!! 1) patch back with her!! YAY!! WEEE!!!
2nd) my mum finally approve me of applying for 2 years plan mobile plan..=D.. FYI, my new number is 96346626.. anything sms/call my new number..wont be using old number anymore..

i took the same hp model as my gf..=D..couple..=P..till here then..

CIAOZ =D!!!

thx for patching back with me syg.=)..<3 u!

ArGh~

2009-02-23T19:53:00.002+08:00

F LA! I WAN UNLIMITED SMS PLAN!! CCB!...

schl..hmm..ok lor, went to schl alone as usual, chat chat... during poa lesson the best..johnson made the mr tan face...it was fking funny, trust me...then we put up pics of mr tan on our notice board..wee..=D..

on the way back to class from history, saw her..but she just ignored me n walk away..haish...

Math common test = 100% fail..=P..wanna bet??=X

well....thats all for today..ciaoz.. CCB! PP8 FINISH LIAO LE!

Sat...

2009-02-22T17:39:00.002+08:00

well..usually sat, ill be at home..but lately, i have been going out with friends..haha...

well, went to schl to meet with zhi yew n jimmy..dont know y, but the 3 of us have been very close to each other lately..=D.. BFF!..

then, went to timezone..last week, jimmy spend 30 sgd on the candy game..yesterday, he spend 27..=.=..n he was damn unlucky..hahas.... walk around, went to eat kfc, look out for chiobu, etc. it was kinda boring..but with the 3 of us together, wasnt so boring..=D... chat with her by sms.. OMG! pp8 left 4 dollar..O.o..ZzZz..i wanna apply for unlimited sms plan..T.T..

around 3, met jerwin.then went to jurong east to meet benjamin..we waited for ibrahim but he nvr came..he didnt even have the initative to tell us he cant go..WTF?! we kenna conned at beach road..bloody bastard..then reach home around 7.30..was damn tired...sms n call her..soon after that, went to slp..=)..
till here then..ciaoz..=D..

anything interetsting, ill post..=D

~ I Really Need U Back..pls~

2009-02-17T18:10:00.002+08:00

I really need u back..
it really hurts me when u told me u dont wanna come back to me..it hurts me alot..i burst into tears when u told me that.... of course we do mistakes n hurt each other sometimes..but we must learn from the mistake rite...theres no harm in trying or patching back..pls..i need u back..

No matter how far i push you away, in my mind you never seem to go away...

If i had the letters HRT, i could get EA and make a HEART, or i could get U and get HURT....
i'd rather get HURT and have U than have a HEART without U

The worse feeling isn't being lonely. It's being forgotten by someone you could never forget.

If i could tell you one thing.
I guess it would be that, i love hearing your
voice and that your smile just happens to
brighten my entire day.

You grab my attention when you walk into the room. It could be midnight and I'm still thinking of you. I cannot control the feelings you got me going through. I want to be yours but, that's up to you.Thinking of you is what brings a smile to my face; dreaming of you is what makes my heart race; looking into your eyes makes me fall even more; but simply being with you is what I live for

As soon as I get online,
I look for your name first.
When listening to a slow song,
Your face comes to my mind.
When I hear the phone ring,
I hope it's you calling.

Of course I love you. But sometimes my love for you overpowers the love I have for myself. And I think you know that's an advantage.

Haish...

2009-02-15T20:07:00.001+08:00

sadly..we broke up again..haiish..dont wanna talk bout it..really miss her lots

~pls always know this~

2009-02-13T19:56:00.003+08:00

syg..i know sometimes u might be sad..due to some reasons that u might not wanna share with me..its ok..i understand...i cant possibly force u either..i just dont wanna see u sad...thats all...

well, this is life...sometimes, we might feel happy but sometimes we might feel sad..we can nvr avoid this fact...

i just want u to know that whenever u need some1 by ur side, ill always be here for u... love isnt about experiencing the happy moments with ur couple....but instead, its about making sacrifices for our couple,understanding each other...and im willing to sacrifice my time for u..im willing to go through pain n pleasure together with u...im willing to go through hell to experience heaven with u...

When im sad, u cheer me up...u r my light..when darkness bind me, u r always there to shine n guide me... u make me wanna live..u make me look forward to see a new day..u make me dont wanna die.. n i wanna return that favour to u..i wanna be ur light that shall shine n guide u..i wanna make u to have the spirit to live on..i wanna be the shoulder that u shall be leaning on when u r down...i wanna be the one that shall lift ur burden n suffer ur pain for u when ur burden is too heavy n when u r in such a pain.

when u r in pain, u nvr knew how much pain i felt.. when u talk bout break up, u nvr knew how much i really felt like breaking down n dieing...u really know how much i wouldnt wanna lose u..even if it means i have to suffer to experience happiness...the happiness u give me is unique... thats something special that will nvr allow any1 to replace u.. n u will always be part of my life that i wouldnt wanna forget..

u hold the key to my heart...u r my source of happiness... if i could ever have 1 wish, ill wish for u to be mine forever...

~[04/02/09][Eternal n True Love]~
~[Aqilah<3 now n forever]~

P.S Wanna dedicate the song [like a rose] to aqilah<3

A NeW PoSt

2009-02-12T17:05:00.002+08:00

Well.. went to school with her this morning..hahas..a memorable 1..=)

hmm..school not bad la..kept singing inside class, in the morning kenna scold by mr nonis for playing alot in class..zzzzz..

had free period for mt..mdm marhaini didnt come..wee..=D..walk outside her class for 3-4 times.. after school, went to meet her in cafe n walk with her n her friends until zebra crossing near temple..she didnt even talk to me..haish nvm..

hmm...sat is valentine's day...but cant ask her out..n i cant give the valentine present tmr..cause tmr is fri the 13..bad luck..O.o..so ill give her on monday..until here then...Looking forward to go to schl with her tmr..=).ciaoz..

~NiGhTmArE~

2009-02-10T17:51:00.002+08:00

OMG! had the worst nightmare...i dreamt she broke up with me..i was crying like hell inside my dream..but i could feel the sadness in real life..it was damn saddening..felt like dieing..but luckly it was jus a dream..phew...

hmm..school was ok today...not bad..not good...was damn emo in class..lie down on e floor..haha.. had to stay back till like 5 pm..wtf?!..

hmm..thats all i think??? n im very glad shes not angry at me anymore..phew..=)

~ Im Really Sry~

2009-02-09T20:14:00.002+08:00

Syg, im really sry bout what happened..if i knew this would have happened, i would have nvr done it..i know i should be more concern bout ur feelings...i have been n i swear ill be more concern after this syg...pls dont make me suffer..i cant stand the cold feeling of u towards me..i really beg for ur forgiveness..i really love u n wouldnt wanna lose u..

There are million of stars in the sky..they look beautiful n without them, the sky wouldnt be nice Ur love for me is like the star in the sky...it is countless n beautiful... without ur love, my life is plain n meaningless...

i <3 u, always have n always will...

Pls forgive me, Aqilah<3

~NoT SuRe~

2009-02-07T16:09:00.002+08:00

hmm,,,u guys might think y do i keep patching with her..well..actually the answer is very simple...

cause i love her very much...i wanna be together with her whenever there is a chance.

went to school for FnN remedial n PoA remedial..after that, meet jerwin..walk with him to e bus stop near bb swimming complex to meet her... accompany her..cause she wanted to collect her jeans..went to timezone then around 1.15 she went back home..how i wish could have spend more time with her..feel damn bad cause didnt accompany back her home..haish..regret not walking her home lor...

then on e way back to home with jerwin, met wei ming..told jerwin to go home first... slack around with wei ming then went home..pp8 finish..OMG!..gonna go top up later.. played football with my bro n his friend...

now, here i am updating my blog..haha..hope to top up my phone soon n chat with her... until here then..ciaoz..=)

UNLUCKY DAY!

2009-02-05T19:53:00.002+08:00

today was very unlucky..=(...at first, zhi yew phone was confiscated..then, within 30 mins, my phone n johnson's was confiscated... lucky we all getting back tmr..phew

hmm..today was ok..wasnt as fun as yesterday..hope tmr lesson wont suck...

so sad..feel so empty without my fone...feel more emptier cause dont get to chat with her..=(..

till here then,..ciaoz

......

2009-02-04T20:44:00.000+08:00

well..today schl was fun... kept laughing during lessons..haha..

keep dancing n singing the rick rolled..=D...

ncc was ok..was drenched cause chee peng dare me to run in the basketball court...zzz

hmm..other stuffs that happen are secrets..=P...until here then..

ciaoz

ScHoOl LiFe

2009-02-02T16:56:00.002+08:00

hmm..school wasnt so bad...kept making jokes n laughing in class...TMR PE!! YAY!! I LOVE PE! =D...hmm...didnt have to see mrs tan today..have to see her tmr..zzzzz...

hmmm..nothing much to write...jus looking forward to pe n ncc..=D..cyaz..ciaoz..=)

=D

2009-01-31T07:33:00.003+08:00

well...wat she said is true..life have to carry on..hahas....

goin out later..returning back zhi yew hp...gonna go play initial D 4 at westmall timezone..=D

no use hoping for something that i cant get...its like im trying to catch air..haha!.. so,i have decided to get over it...=)..

cyaz..ciaoz..=D..

2009-01-30T16:25:00.001+08:00

hmm..let me see..i went to school n now im back..cyaz

~SHIT~

2009-01-29T20:02:00.001+08:00

HEY GUYS!!!GUESS WHAT.... THE FKING SHIT HAS HAPPENED AGAIN....

zzzzzz..shit day...

2009-01-29T17:11:00.002+08:00

1st) she answer me with that type of attitude..wtf?!...wth is wrong??!

2nd) FKING AUNTIE CUT MY HAIR TILL LIKE FK!

THATS ALL FOR NOW...CYA N F*CK OFF!

~PoInTS~

2009-01-28T20:47:00.002+08:00

hmm..found interesting points.

48)Find a Guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

49)Who calls you back when you hang up on him

50) Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

51) “Hey, are you busy?“ or “Are you doing something?“ ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

52) Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

53) Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
57) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

58) Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they’re still loved.

59) Don’t talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

60) Guys get jealous easily.

61) Guys are more emotional than they’d like people to think.

62) Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…nevermind..“ would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he’ll assume he did something wrong and he’ll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
65) Girls are guys’ weaknesses
71) Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

~ WeekEnd Life SucKs~

2009-01-27T16:17:00.002+08:00

hmm..it was damn bored as i to stay at home for 4 days...bored like hell!..all i did during the weekend/holiday was go out with joseph n zhi yew, n chat with my gf...hahas..thats the only thing i do...

YAY! tmr got school...=D.. i LOVE school..but i hate lessons..=P...

advantages of school.
1. meet my gf..wee..=D
2. meet my didi n mei mei..=X..O.o
3. meet my friends lor..chat around..joke around..haha..=D
4. dont have to rot at home...=D

Disadvantages of school.
1. HW!
2.LESSONS!
3.TEACHERS!
4.STAYBACKS!

tats all..hehe...=P..ciaoz!.=)

~BlAnK~

2009-01-24T13:45:00.001+08:00

OMG! wed is wei chen bdae n i dont have anything for him..im dead..T.T..

weekend is here..n school will start on wed..omg, i think im gonna rot at home over the holiday... so bored!...hmm, so far nothing much have happened..any intereting thing, ill post...ciaoz..=D

~UnKnOwN~

2009-01-22T18:29:00.005+08:00

hmm...just came back from workshop...damn boring...

hmm,went library for history.....then went to accompany her for recess n afta school.
i guess my life is much better with her..=)..much much much better i should say..hahas..how i wish this was a fairytale n i could live a happy ever after life with her..=).<3333 her

My bro-in-law said i was cute(my actions) during ncc??O.O..

until here then..cyaz....hoping to see more happy days with her...=D ciaoz!

~I Wont Cry If U Go Away, I Will Die.~
~I Don't Want U , I Need U~
~Roses R Red,Violets Are Blue
What I Have Always Wanted, Was U~

Happy Day..=D

2009-01-20T17:40:00.002+08:00

i guess things really happen when u least expect it.... im really thankful that i was a given a chance.=)..

i promise u i will nvr screw up this time..i dont want the same thing to happen again..i dont wanna lose u..i dont want to cry anymore...

thx alot.... <3 u forever..=)

Its all over

2009-01-19T19:57:00.000+08:00

well..read the title....

ITS ALL OVER!!!!!

guess theres nothing i can do..

went bowling after schl today..scored 113 points oni..T.T

nothing much to write..ill post if theres any update or interesting thing...

The Truth

2009-01-17T23:47:00.003+08:00

its 11.47 n i cant sleep...so, i decided to post about the truth of wat i felt bout my recent ex.

Monday,5th jan.No Psl duty

Tuesday,6th jan. i went into 1e2. had to teach them cheering but i have nvr like cheering before.so, i decided to just stand at a corner n supervise the class. All of a sudden, my mind started to scan the class. Looking at the faces of my new schlmates. At the left side of the class, something caught my eye, it was her...i was mesmerised..but i wasnt convinced that i had feelings for her, so, i decided to jus forget bout it n called it a day.

Wed,7th jan. i had to spend nearly 3 hours with 1e2 for cheering n singing. i wasnt very happy with that. so, i stand at the back of the class. i was very bored. till wai kit came in n chat with me. I kept looking at my ex, but wasnt because of my feelings for her, but instead, because she didnt want to cheer along. i jus decided to keep quiet.

Thurs,8th jan. The day my eye cant stop looking at her..i was confused.i decided to jus forget bout it n call it a day, so i did.

Fri,9th jan. The Big day... thilagan called in 1t1 psl to help out in the cheering..i was happy at the start until my ex look at other boys n i felt jealous. that was when i reallise i had fall for her.... since then, i tried to look out for her every time...it was so addicting. i cant resist. she was like my nicotine. i jus cant stop thinking of her.During Campfire nite, she disturbed me n i was happy instead of irritated. for that nite, i cant sleep...she was on my mind...every minute, every second. i was fully convinced that i really love her, i had to do something bout it.

Sat,10th jan Woke up that morning. But had only 1 objective in mind, which is to see her.Saw her during mornin pt. was very happy.n i skiped my cca duty because of 2 reason. 1) wanted to see her always. 2) stomach ache......When it came to the end of the camp, i had to ask my fren to get her number because i was very nervous. When i got her number, i was really happy...

That nite, i stead with her...i was very happy. felt as if i was the luckiest man on earth..i couldnt have asked for more..all i wanted was her... 10.01.19|19:43<----a day i will nvr forget.it is because it was the happiest day of my life...

She might be a normal person to the world. but she is the world to me. She was my happiness, my life, my soul n my everything..without her, life will nvr be the same for me...

<3 her now n <3 her forever. My love for u is deeper than the deepest ocean, wider than the universe.

Ill be waiting for u<3<3<3

SaTuRdAy~

2009-01-17T11:00:00.004+08:00

hmm..been a few days since i post...

on wed n thursday, i went to school..but after an hour, i went home.. wasnt feeling good n was kinda sad bout the broke up...im very glad to have all my friends because all of them try to make me feel better...i really appreciate it.

i guess being emo isnt good anyway..it doesnt bring any advantage..but i tried to slash my hand tho..haha..for fun..cause my friend got 3 penknife...so i took 1..=P....

trying to get over it...see her everyday in school. but she just avoid me when she see me...i guess its really over for me n her??no chance?? sigh..ill just follow the flow n see what lies ahead of me....ill jus hope she will gimme another chance..

im glad to have a good friend that i can talk with to make me feel better..even though i just get to know 'this friend', im quite comfortable talking with him/her...and he/she is very good to me..willing to help me out..=)..ill always find a way to repay her/him...=)..until now then...gonna go out soon..need to buy thumbdrive..was thinking of buying SANDISK Cruzer Titanium...ill attach a photo of it..it look DAMN NICE!!

..n gonna go buy pp8 card...i spend $7 in a day by smsing with my ex....when i was still with her during the past few days..but i dont mind tho.. cause i was willing to do anything for her..but im just not sure what i did that was wrong that made her wanna break with me..haish =(

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This is a pic of the cruzer titanium..=D..

13-1-09

2009-01-14T10:05:00.003+08:00

the day i broke up with her...wasnt even expecting it..i thought ill nvr have to go through this pain again...y does she have to go??what did i do wrong...i really want her back...all i can do now is cry n cry..i dont even have the mood to do anything...I STILL LOVE U SO MUCH!!! PLS COME BACK TO ME!..

A sunday life

2009-01-11T12:53:00.003+08:00

well..woke up, went to religious class n here i am now using the comp..its so boring...was smsing with 'the person ' through out the entire lesson lol...hmm..goin school with the ' the person' tmr...

must leave house early n must not be late..wouldnt want to make 'the person ' wait for me....well.. yesterday was a very nice day..a memorable day i should say..i was so damn happy yesterday.. well i guess, we should try or else we wont know the outcome...

till here then..ciaoz..=D

P.S. i wont mention who the 'the person ' is....until i think its time..=D..or 'the person ' give me the permission to say out....

Back From Sec 1 Camp

2009-01-10T13:34:00.002+08:00

...just came back from sec 1 camp...was tiring..the FOOD SUCKS!!! BUDGET VIEW!! i think i got food poisoning...have to keep goin to toilet... my class at first was very unenthu..but atlast...they were motivated...but it was a waste they didnt win anything...but atleast they tried their best...im very proud of my class..1e2..=D..this is like the best camp ever...n ill nvr forget it...

i also get to a new person...well, was very scared to talk to this person...but atleast, get a hang of it... haissh...was so damn stupid la..i had to get a friend to talk to the person..walau..after that, i had the damn guilt feeling..especially when the person keep looking at me...this will be all..no mood atm..when i got mood..ill write more..ciaoz.=D

Dead Blog..hahas

2008-12-22T20:06:00.001+08:00

hello..my blog is dead..ahhas..today was very tiring..went for skit rehearsal..looking forward to the next 1..hahas..3 more days n im off to malaysia..will be back on sunday..=D..

kinda bored...everyday i only play xbox 360 or comp..lols.haish...

thx to all who tagged my board

2008-12-16T08:23:00.002+08:00

i know my blog is kinda dead..=X..well, this is because like what i have said, there isn't much to write about during holiday.

thursday gtg schl again for sec 1 orientation camp planning, 25 dis going K.Terrenganu. staying at the Awana Kijal resort..this would be my 2nd time n cant wait to go..hahas..

~HoliDay LiFe~

2008-12-10T08:53:00.002+08:00

Some Photos i have taken from playing cabal..=P

been a few days since i posted..sigh...this is holiday life..
basically, i only play cabal during holiday.thats my holiday life..so sian..

Well, let me give a summary of my holiday..
Wake up at 6, slack around till 8 am, play comp till 4pm. go out n play outside.
come back at 6.30 pm. watch tv until 9-10, sleep..its the same everyday...

my hp pp8 also low, cant chat with people....

cabal latest patch

2008-12-09T12:06:00.001+08:00

http://www.cabalchronicle.com/download/01122008.rar

TIRING DAY

2008-12-03T23:13:00.002+08:00

hmm..havent been updating my blog..=X..anyways, yesterday n today i had to go to ncc hq to become the Guard Of Honour for Commandant Change Of Command..well, the first day i was super suay, jus because hair long, they put me in reserve team...whole day slack 1 corner, joke around.. eat lunch n dinner..afta everything finish, we went back to collect our hp..then got 1 person name perasan or something...then the seargent(NS) shouted PERASAN!...PERASAN JUBO!...we all was laughing like hell..well, actually i wanted to take MC for today because i scared i cut my hair but still become reserve..but guess cutting my hair was worth it...1 person reported sick so i took over his place n get to enter the main contingent...did 3 rehearsals...alot of people report sick..hahas.. then the main parade..nobody reported sick...was damn nice..all endure to the max.. then when we march in front of all the spectators n supporting/marching(normal people) contigents...we march with pride since we get to wear no.1 while they had to wear no.4...hahas..=D..LAND GUARDS!! we march damn nice...i had to admit it was very tiring had to stand while they read the message or what shit..but it was really worth it..we get a nice memory.. n also this is my 2nd time wearing no.1 for this year..we get to carry rifle with bionet or what ever....=D...

best parade i ever had n wish i could go more of this type of parade..=D

hmm..back to my love story...i dont know how to put this la...she stead with him already..(i think) so, been a few days since i sms her..pp8 low anyways..>.>..i wish i could control the world...Im trying to walk away but this crush aint going away..

Got a jokes.=D..not from me tho..some1 told me...btw, blonde are describe as dumb..so this is the joke

1st) there was a redhead,brunette n a blonde...the astranuat ask the brunette where would they wanna go if they could go into space..she said, i will go to the mars since theres alot of discovery..
then the person ask the redhead the same question, n she said i would go to the saturn to see the rings...then the person ask the blonde the same question...n she answered, i would like to go to the sun..then the person said, why would u??u would die due to the intense heat..then the blonde asnwered, I WOULD GO TO THE SUN AT NIGHT!!..hahas...

no offence to blonde anyways...=X..well..i think every1 is born the same..it only depends on us on how we make descisions..

thursday,27-11-08

2008-11-27T11:27:00.001+08:00

well..here i am..nvr get to go obs..=(.. jus sit n play comp the whole day lol..Left4Dead ROCKS lol..the zombie damn nice...

looks like she already stead with him..all i can do is jus to wait until i get a chance after she break up with him..wait n wait..is that what i am born for??sigh..

a sad day..=(

2008-11-23T08:38:00.002+08:00

sigh..jus because i sprained my shoulder, i cant go to obs...damn sad lor..T.T... 2 days before obs then i sprained...=(...gonna be bored..T.T...T.T...T.T

sigh..pp8 finish already..cant chat with her..=(...n it really sucks..cause i cant go obs..makes me really sad..n cant chat with her...wah..sibei sad..=(

Tiring Day

2008-11-19T17:22:00.002+08:00

went for swimming at jurong east...rode the blue slide = 5 times, yellow = Countless..=D...then kept diving n swimming without googles..eyes damn pain =(..red like hell..have to keep blinking..hope will be ok by tmr..need to shoot for shooting competition live fire..=D..hope wont cock up..>.<

after that, went to time zone...played around 17 sgd...changed my plastic powercard to gold card.. =D...it look dam nice..=D..now got 53 total credits left..which means i need 1947 sgd for ultimate plantinum card..hahas...well..i am happy i already have a personalized gold card..=D...

she nvr fail to make me smile..=)..n how i wish i could do the same to her =).... she said she will be happy when i am, sad when i am too..then, i have been thinking...if she will be happy when i am, then we should get together..cause i will be very very happy..then she should be too rite??since she claims our feelings r the same...well..i dont think that will happen =( but i hope it will.....im hoping very very much..if i can ask for 1 last wish before i die, she will be my last wish....

18-11-08

2008-11-18T17:21:00.002+08:00

sigh..nothing much happens to me...been a few days since i touch my blog..went to follow part A for shooting comp....

well..got a few events coming out...
1)20 Nov - Part C Shooting competition
2)21 Nov - Bukit view open house - In-Chargefor Drill Squad
3)23 Nov- Book in Ncc Hq n stay overnite
4)24nov to 28nov - Outward Bound Singapore
5)2 n 3rd dec -( Guard Of Honour) for change of commandant parade
sigh..so tight schedule..all ncc

sigh..havent been chatting with her lately..either pp8 low or nth to talk about....sigh..sometimes, i feel like giving up...but i jus cant...i hope i will start to chat with her frequently like in the pass..Well, i am willing to spend 24hrs for her...but is she willing to do the same for me?? i think the answer would be very obvious..sigh..=(

14-11-08

2008-11-14T11:32:00.002+08:00

1)Whats your full name?
Muhammad Afi Hanif Bin Juraimi

2)Do you like your first name?
hmm..not sure which is my first name..>.<.if it is afi..I LOVE IT!

3)How long have you liked the person you currently like?
hmmm...since UG camp, so will be 1 mnth 1 week..=D

4)Have you kissed anyone in the last 48 hours?
Nopez

5)Did you cry today?
Nope

6)What are you doing this morning at 8am?
sleeping..hahas

7)What are you doing an hour ago?
playing comp

8)What are you currently doing?
This quiz..O.O

9)Who last texted you a msg?
My bro

10)Have you told anybody that you love them today?
Nopez...

11)Do you miss anyone now?
yes n always have been

12)Any plans for tomorrow?
nope..probably play comp

13)What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
hmmm...cant remember

14)Is there anyone you want to be with now?
Yea!

15)Have you kissed anyone who's name starts with C ?
hmm..YUPZ!

16)Name someone who made you smile today and how?
not yet for today

17)Name a friend who's name starts with 'Z'?
none lol

18)Which of your friend stays closest to you?
hmm..hard to say..all stay close to me..=D

19)Do you prefer to call or to text?
call..so wont delay the reply n also save pp8

20)Was yesterday better than today?
well..im not sure yet since dont know what will happen for today

21)Can you live a day without tv and your phone?
yes...i have gone for 5 camps...n going for the 6th(OBS) n i can survive without hp n tv..=D

22)Are you mad about anything now?
Nope..=D

23)Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it?
yea!

24)Last person you visited in a hospital?
My Grandfather

25)When is your last and second last hug?
hmm..not sure..i seldomly hug unless with my gf..=P

26)What does the last text msg in your inbox says?
Kau belikan starsword pastu kau continue ( sry its in malay..cause my whole family talk using mly language...)

27)How do you feel about your life now?
jus hoping for something n miserable without her

28)Do you hate anyone?
THATS FOR ME TO KNOW N FOR U TO FIND OUT =P

29)Last person you called?
ashwin antony

30)Who usually sent you the most texts in a month?
hmm..not sure... probably HER...cause i sms her alot..hahas

31)Is your room messy now?
ALWAYS ARE..hahas

32)Who will be mad if your room is messy?
Parents

33)Your shortest relationship?
2 month

34)Who do you look like?
hmm..like a chinese guy??maybe my chinese great grandparents..=D

35)Tag 10 people to do this survey!
hmm..all those i know..=D..
(cant think of the 10 person lol)

13-11-08

2008-11-13T17:45:00.000+08:00

went to schl for ncc shooting practise....hit 5/5 target for 100m range..MUAHAHA... guess Benjamin isnt going for the competition after all..=D...

hmm..didnt even talk to her since morning.=(..pp8 dam low also...fall asleep while waiting for her ystrday nite..=(

12-11-08

2008-11-12T20:07:00.002+08:00

hmm..went to schl..did some drills.. then the chee peng or watever ask for a song.. then i sing money honey n hot and cold..every1 join in lol..haha..

OMG, Ashwin's father know already that i made the blue black to his hand..i swear ill nvr hurt any1 anymore...=D...

went to watch quantum of solace with wai kit, jerwin, ashwin , swarti or whateva, sandy n fathin.. hmm..the movie was bored..then inside the mrt..kept joking with all the boys..hahas..was a fun trip back..=P....

well..thats it for today...n hope my chat with her will be fun..=D..got a joke for her anyway..

Btw, how i wish there was Best Joker Cadet..people say i confirm can win..=D.. is that y my nickname is KlowN(ClowN) ?=X..but this is the funny clown..not the killer 1..=P

11-11-08

2008-11-11T09:00:00.001+08:00

im gonna start with yesterday first...hmm..scored 1/10 for live fire... the recoil n sound was a kickass...O.O...hmm..my bro taking leave for 3 days..which means no comp for me for 3 days..=(

hmm...told her to sms me when reach home, but didnt..sigh..dont know wat to say anymore..

this morning jus get to know my father wouldnt be working anymore till he find a new job.....

nothing much to write..sigh..no mood anyways...

9-11-08

2008-11-09T16:52:00.004+08:00

A day ill nvr forget...my grandfather pass away at 1.30 am today..=(..visited his house..went to the cemetery, see the burial..said some prayers for him the went home....

hmm..she sms me first yesterday nite...=D..well i know it nothing to be happy about..be its meaningful to me..=P..for some circumstances..thx for cheering me up over my grandfathers death..=)

8-11-08

2008-11-08T19:28:00.003+08:00

hmm..nothing much to write..was damn bored at home... played football with ashwin... then went to shop n walk around with him..went home..took a bath then play comp...hmm was damn bored..was suppose to sent laptop for repair at alpine or something but the place was close..phew.. if not have to travel to funan..=(..

well..purposely didnt message her to see if she will msg me first..guess my expectation was correct..she wouldnt sms me unless i sms her first...sigh..=(..i guess im nobody in her life.. or maybe jus a mere joker...=(..sigh...but i believe, time will help me out....the day i get her will be the best n greatest day of my life..=)

7-11-08 STUPID ME!!!

2008-11-07T10:48:00.003+08:00

OMFG!!!I WANTED TO SMS KOK WAI..BUT ACCIDENTALLY SMS HER..OMG..>.<.. LUCKLY SHE WASNT ANGRY N FORGIVE ME..IF NOT I DIE..>.<

hmm..goin bowling later..=D..bro lend me money..around 20 maybe??that makes my debt with him 200 sgd..XD..HAHAHZ

waited for her to sms..but she didnt..i had to sms her..haiz

6-11-08

2008-11-06T18:07:00.003+08:00

hmm..today was ok..history was fun..zhi yew like what sia..take a video of him playing with his body....hope mr tan huong would spread it..=P

anyways,math was very sleepy..but had to copy down notes..so mr chan wont think im hopeless or call my parent...zzz..afta schl..went to hq to submit jerwin's form..stupid jerwin..so sianz..nobody to sms to..she gtg sph for chinese thingy..=(...went home..n now, using comp..=X..hope to be able to chat with her later at nite..MUAHAHA..=p

=)=)=)=)=)=)=)IWANTTHATCHANCE=)=)=)=)=)=)

=(=(=(=(=(=(=( love hurts n everytime i read something that i dont like, my hopes feel low..=(=(=(
=(=(=(=(=(=(=( really feelslike giving up..but i cant...afta all i have sacrificed=(=(=(=(=(=(=(

5/11/08

2008-11-05T16:54:00.002+08:00

sigh..yesterday nite felt like shit..today too..especially afta schl...1 by 1..things happen..felt like jus destroying this world...sigh..the spirit of living is gone...sigh..met ashwin, went to dnt block..slack there..went back home..feeling still like shit...sigh..i want that 1 chance..=(

4-11-08

2008-11-04T19:30:00.001+08:00

sigh..today..schl sucks... only chem rocks cause get to do practical..history wasnt so bad..but had to do test..but still get to chat n joke around..hahaz..afta schl..went to hq..for briefing..looks like 4 people going obs..me,yu jie waikit n jerwin..lols..jerwin will be the only indian guy probably... only got like 3 mly boys including me... maybe waikit gonna be the oic..haha..

Ystrday hope was high, today was low...im not sure whats gonna happen to me...sigh..

love this sentence..a pwnage..
A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no.
She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no.

She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no.

She had heard enough.

As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said....

You're not pretty you're beautiful.

I dont want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.

And I wouldnt cry if you walked away...I'd die...

nth much to talk about anyway...sigh..how i wish i could have the world the way i want it..the first thing i would wish for would surely be her..haiz

3-11-08

2008-11-03T14:28:00.002+08:00

hmm..didnt post yesterday..well..yesterday was just playing cabal,go for medical check up..( I HATE URINE TEST!!! have to urine in the small container..=.=)... n chatting with her... i fall asleep at nite while waiting for her sms..>.<..

well..today..went to schl..not bad bah..kept smsing in class n schl..got busted by mr BD tan n mr nazar(dont know spelling)..lucky they nvr confiscate..>.<.. afta schl went to wm..saw her from the 3rd floor...=P...went to jimmy house..see him play wolf team then go home...hope to get more gd things coming my way..=D..n i want that 1 chance!

1-11-08

2008-11-01T14:32:00.001+08:00

well..today was normal...wake up..played comp...chat with her...didnt go for medical check up..maybe tmr or monday....hmm..nothing much to write..

31-10-08

2008-10-31T13:48:00.007+08:00

Me,Yu Jie n Wai kit going for outward bound singapore at pulau ubin..hope this will be the confirmed list...gtg for medical check up, take injection... tuesday gotta submit all the forms n attend a briefing..
Including this camp, it would be my 4th or 5th..O.o..
1)Sec 1 orientation camp(facilitator)
2)Sec 3 adventure camp
3) Endau rompin camp
4) NCC annual camp
5) Uniform Group Camp
5)OBS

sigh..i broke up with my gf after the bintan camp for her...but only now i reallise how slim my chance is...sigh..it really feels like impossible..maybe 1 in a million chance?? but im praying hard n hope i will get that chance...Only now i reallise that my hope is like a candle.. as the oxygen(happy moments) gets lesser n lesser...it will die off..but i hope mine wouldnt...not after the things i have gone through n i have sacrifice..

saw something that i wish i wouldnt have seen...sigh..everyday, things that i wish wouldnt happen will start to happen... OMG! I SOUND SO EMO!!.. but im not emo..=P..

Zzzz...anyhow press, then blog became like last time...

P.S.
Sandy, thx anyway for ur help..sry i kinda wasted ur help..wish i could rewind everything

Remember to tagg...=D

30-10-08

2008-10-30T16:41:00.002+08:00

hmm..well..today was ok..n luckily the creative writing workshop was more interesting n the speaker didnt give more lame jokes..>.>... haziq was a pwnage...AMBIK KAU... jus gotten a good news today after school...me,haziq n yu jie gonna go for outward bound singapore.=D gonna get badge n t shirt..yipee!!..

Sms her, but didnt reply.. The Singtel Mobile Customer Is Unavaible, Pls Try Again Later. WTF?!
sigh..sometimes, my hopes feel high, sometimes its low. but 1 thing im sure is im jus asking for 1 chance....tmr will be the last day we get to see mr raymond ya gay post..=D

btw, sry if my blog sucks..i dont know anything about it..was jus bored so i made 1..=.=..
link me or etc..=D..MUAHAHA..

OMG..im so noob...how to have tagboard??>.<.sms me if u know..=D